“Hypocrite. You don’t really want that and you know it.”
Life would be a lot more enjoyable if Satan would just shut up. This particular phrase was thrown at me when one day I prayed, “Lord, let me be a genuine blessing to those I interact with today.”
I realized immediately that what Satan had thrown at me was a lie. I did really desire to be a blessing, whether or not I received anything in return, and even if all they did was reject me. But he didn’t back off; he reminded me that “in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells” (Romans 7:18), so you must be delusional if you think you really do desire to do good to others.
I know that the heart is desperately wicked (Jeremiah 17:9). I know that I am incapable of desiring any good thing (Romans 3:9-18). I know that selflessness – truly loving those who revile me – is something I cannot muster up (Romans 7:18).
But I also know that “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me” (Galatians 2:20).
Not because of who I am, but because of who Christ is, and because Christ lives in me, I am able to genuinely, selflessly love others. So, recognizing the enemy’s lie, I whipped out the Sword of Truth and HACKED THAT LIE TO PIECES, BABY.
I am IN CHRIST, and “if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new” (2 Corinthians 5:17). God has “give[n me] a new heart and put a new spirit within [me]” (Ezekiel 36:26). I DO truly desire to be a blessing. But this isn’t because I’m some amazing person – this is because of my amazing Jesus. It isn’t my desperately wicked heart that desires to love others, but His gloriously holy heart. And He has given me His heart. Which means it is mine.
My old heart has passed away – crucified with Christ; behold, all of me has become new! WHAT A JESUS!
By faith I accept His heart as my own. Will I stop trying to work up love for men and hatred for sin in my own heart, and instead believe that I already have these in the new heart Christ has given me? If I am not feeling what He would be feeling in a particular situation, the only logical thing is to repent of trying to live off of my old heart and turn again to His heart, believing that since I have His heart, of course I will feel what He feels.
If you don’t have His heart, the Creator of the world is ready and longing to recreate you. Give Him your heart – all of it – and He will give you all of His in return. If you do have His heart, don’t let the enemy tell you otherwise. To believe the enemy’s lies is to make God out to be a liar. Stand firm on the solid truth of His word, and use it to combat the father of lies. These words are faithful and true: “Behold, I make all things new.” — Jesus (Revelation 21:5)